There I was all alone and abandoned in another city just dumped by my boyfriend like I was some garbage and then waiting for a bus so I could get home and cry.
Now when I look back I remember when I started seeing this Italian guy that I thought it was never going to work, we seemed so different both with culture and personality and ambitions in life, but sometimes you let your heart decide and give it a chance. Seven months later it turned out I was right; he decided that I was not the right girl and he dumped me…. at the train station when we came back from holiday.
I was so upset and suddenly felt very alone for the first time in a while. My head was full of questions and my heart of anger and sadness. How could any person just leave their loved ones in such a disrespectful way at a station and with so little words and without caring for the other person’s feelings or situation of getting home. It is hard with break ups when you live abroad or travelling – your really close friends are so far away and you feel an emptiness on a totally different level that is hard to describe.
I decided not to be embarrassed about the whole situation but be angry and sad instead and when everybody back at work and my friends asked me how my holiday had been I answered openly and honest and it actually felt as a relief to be able to do that. I didn’t have to hide my feelings and I could share the breakup with colleagues and friends. It was so lovely to feel all the care and support from them and that was exactly what I needed. After a week I sent him a message explaining how I felt he had treated me, not really to throw mud but to let the anger off my chest and to get a proper closure.
Now I am listening to myself and focusing more on my own plans and ideas and it feels free not to have to involve another person but just listen to my own heart and mind and what I want to do. I am happy again and excited about all my travel plans and changes in 2017. I can feel it is gonna be a great year and I am full of positive energy again.